"My Lullaby" Written by Kodi, 3 days before she took her life.....
Ryah Elizabeth Jewell Hawthorne
My Lullaby - Written 4/5/2010
For my Ryah Elizabeth Jewell
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I'm trembling like a withered leaf,
without hope, without belief
I would give anything in the world to hear you cry..
to gently sing you, my lullaby.
Justice seems all to hard to understand
Constant visions of your tiny palm in my hand.
Looking at me with those big blue eyes;
I'd give anything to sing you, my lullaby.
I keep sitting here alone, asking god why
My eyes swell with tears when I hear another baby cry.
I'm on my knees, begging to the sky;
Let me sing to my little angel, my lullaby.
For over a month now, tears stream down my face
It's taking so much strength to stay in this place.
I remember, when I heard your very first cry
The birth of my beautiful daughter, my lullaby.
Your smile, your presence, your adorable coo
As your mother, I'll always do anything for you.
I'll be here for you until the day you die;
I'll always sing you, my lullaby.
Love,
Mommy
For my Ryah Elizabeth Jewell
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I'm trembling like a withered leaf,
without hope, without belief
I would give anything in the world to hear you cry..
to gently sing you, my lullaby.
Justice seems all to hard to understand
Constant visions of your tiny palm in my hand.
Looking at me with those big blue eyes;
I'd give anything to sing you, my lullaby.
I keep sitting here alone, asking god why
My eyes swell with tears when I hear another baby cry.
I'm on my knees, begging to the sky;
Let me sing to my little angel, my lullaby.
For over a month now, tears stream down my face
It's taking so much strength to stay in this place.
I remember, when I heard your very first cry
The birth of my beautiful daughter, my lullaby.
Your smile, your presence, your adorable coo
As your mother, I'll always do anything for you.
I'll be here for you until the day you die;
I'll always sing you, my lullaby.
Love,
Mommy
Happy Birthday Letter to Ryah - May 28, 2010
Today is your FIRST birthday! It's a big one. I know your mom had her eye on a couple of dresses that you could have worn today and had always been so excited to share this day with you! I imagine her smiling face as she helped you open presents, and played with the toys together and you two just laughed and laughed. I bet Tayven would have been a big help as a big brother who could put all the toys together for you!
Your mom would have picked out a great cake and probably wouldn't have been able to videotape you eating it very well because she would have been doubled over laughing as you smeared frosting all over your face. The first birthday is a big day for a baby and a big day for her momma.
I think about you -- if you are safe -- if you are happy -- if you are cuddled before bed, have room to explore, get lots of chances to giggle. Know that she loves you still. Happy Birthday, precious little girl.
Your mom would have picked out a great cake and probably wouldn't have been able to videotape you eating it very well because she would have been doubled over laughing as you smeared frosting all over your face. The first birthday is a big day for a baby and a big day for her momma.
I think about you -- if you are safe -- if you are happy -- if you are cuddled before bed, have room to explore, get lots of chances to giggle. Know that she loves you still. Happy Birthday, precious little girl.